"Although globalization has been seen as the defining process of our time, we seem to be uneasy and confused about what kind of world we actually live in."-Carl W. Ernst

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Let's Appreciate!

I love Arcade Fire. Chris Martin from Coldplay supposedly deemed them one of the greatest bands ever. When I listen to their Funeral album, I agree. Neon Bible, however, is a little more dark.

Here's the chorus to "Intervention", one of my favorite songs off their most recent album:

Working for the Church while your family dies.
You take what they give you
And you keep it inside.
Every spark of friendship and love
will die without a home.
Hear the soldier groan, We'll go at it alone.

Maybe those that come from a ministry-centered family can relate. What PK doesn't know that their father or their mother would be busy at the church or on visitations half of the week? Also, it's no secret that the congregation likes burning out their leaders. Of course, the relationships the pastor makes with the church always seem to be severed and broken off once they leave the church and serve elsewhere. As for the last line, everyone knows that leadership is lonely.

This is a bleak secular outlook on leadership in the church. How embarrassing. They saw through our guise of hypocritical love and acceptance. Although I have seen true and Christ-centered like environments where the pastors and ministers are taken care of without haughtiness, weren't we all guilty of taking our leaders for granted?

The songwriter alludes to Jesus in the next verse. Who is going to throw the very first stone? I certainly can't.

Still Alive!

I made it safely back in Edmonton and man, did I miss the skyline! It's beautiful here!

I'm going to miss you, my Whit2 sisters. You've been there for me countless times. Thanks for checking up on me when I was sick or when I was pulling a late night. I will miss the sounds of joy outside my door. Have a good summer, my friends. I hope I will see you soon!

I haven't found a job yet, so that means I will be poor but I have lots of time to read books! Life is going to be good.

And here's a visual reminder that I am home. My photogenic Queen Elizabeth I doll is sitting beside my favorite childhood books. (Actually, that's a lie. I routinely enjoy Gordon Korman's books for their clever humor and pop culture trivia.)

Monday, April 19, 2010

My Roommate is Packing

Robyn is packing up and I am in denial. I'm going to have the room to myself for a full week without her. This is different than mod week or the time she went to Manitoba. I'm going to have to stare at an ugly mattress and a white wall. (A sign that I'm losing my sanity?) But then I will have to start packing, and it will be like work and loneliness all mixed up together.

Not even my academics or weather can defer me from these blues.

Update: Academics only adds to the melancholy.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Year End Blues

I don't know what's going on, or who is doing it, but I just want to say thank you. I've managed to keep it all in together and I haven't had a mental breakdown this semester. I'm sure I owe a lot to my prayer group, who knows of my anxieties and woes, not to mention my family and friends back home who I am sure are praying for me. Whoever you are, thanks. I've been busy and stressed, but not the hair ripping, why-does-the-world-feel-like-it-is-on-top-of-my-shoulders-all-of-a-sudden stress.

I went to my prof's house tonight. He made us curry and we watched a movie that I requested (hee!). It was a wonderful documentary called The Queen and I, which is the story of two women of different worlds reconciling even though they disagreed on the topics surrounding the Iranian revolution three decades ago, which actually becomes the basis for the movie. We had a nice time getting to know one another and discussed the movie briefly afterwards. It was fun and really kind of him to have us over.

This semester is coming to a close, and Robyn and I are going to have a little hang out tomorrow afternoon/evening. I still have 3-4 exams left, and then it's grad! I'm really excited to dress up and bring out my spring clothes, even though I love the fall collection more. Always.

I'm getting use to having a crappy GPA. I feel like even though I worked so hard for 4 months, haven't slept in all semester, I blew it all on a final. Now I just wish for the summer for the opportunity to memorize my Mounce textbook so I could sort of redeem myself...knowing that maybe I would have been better off doing that in the first place.

Anyways, I smell like curry and I refuse to be upset about my marks so I'm going to change and get ready for bed. Apparently, life still moves on even when mediocrity is knocking on your door, so maybe I'll concentrate my efforts into making the world into a better place and not being bitter when there are more important things at hand.

Did I mention that it's beautiful outside?

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Last Day of School

I've been pronouncing the word "diaspora" wrong all semester.

Also, I'm surviving off 2 hours of sleep. I've been doing that for days. The sad thing is, my body is starting to get use to it, so I'm actually not that tired all of a sudden. I think I've fallen asleep in class with 9 hours of sleep, but never 2 or 3.

The next 30 hours of my life will be the most stressful all semester...possibly for the last 2 years. I have 2 papers to write. One I still need to research for, which is really embarrassing.

And after I pull an all nighter, there's still the year end barbecue tomorrow for rep. board.

Furthermore, in another case of irony, school has hindered me from blogging anything meaningful.

I can't wait till exam time. I can't wait till I have time to work on my DL. I can't wait till I get a proper night's sleep.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Last Push

My life so far:
-Still working on 3 different papers
-Still tired and stressed
-Still planning on going to a meeting

Apparently we're dressing up for our last meeting. I haven't really decided how "business casual" is "business casual."

On a sidenote: my grades haven't completely tanked yet. Hurray?

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Sleeping in the Library

Today I was in the library working at a table and I noticed that I started falling asleep, so I left the table and went into a cubicle to sleep. When I woke up, I went back to the table and worked and my friend didn't even notice.

Haha I'm sneaky!

Easter Chapel

Easter Chapel was so good today. I walked in late and it was completely dark, except on stage. I wanted to review my Greek during the talk, but I couldn't. The reason for the lights off was because we were suppose to come to the cross in reverence.

The speaker talked about how Jesus washed his disciples' feet, and how it was also an act of humility for the disciples to let Jesus wash their feet.

All the student leaders, those in student government and the coordinators and next year's student body president were at the front washing people's feet. It was actually really awkward for me but an interesting experience.

Happy Easter weekend!

April Fool's

Today we had a quiz in Greek class. Our prof. told us she was ramping us up and getting ready for second year Greek.

Basically we had to write the entire quiz from English to Greek.

Five minutes into the quiz, she says, "April Fool's!!" and took back the quiz and gave our actual quizzes for us to do.

Ha ha.